not anymore, he said
grasping his chest as if in pain
as if the knowledge of lost love is sudden, surprising
i imagine his heart, a room
filled with light that isn’t mine
it is empty and hollow
cleansed of me, of us
here, there were no scattered memories
(him, singing in my ear)
(the warmth of his breath on my neck)
like a gallery missing its pieces
my voice echoes when i say his name
filling this strange, lifeless room
temporarily
i walk with caution
lest i am met with a memory
that isn’t of me
i fight the urge to shout, to break things
understanding how futile it is
in a room as empty as this
i look at him, understanding now
and i try to hold back tears
shed in memory of memories forever lost
there is nothing here
not anymore, he said
😢