It was simpler then. It didn’t feel like the world was this huge, menacing entity, bent on tearing us apart. Of course, I’m not saying we didn’t have our share of fights and breakups then, but it never felt this way, as if too many things were outside my control, like I’m waiting for something terrible to happen.
We’ve been together for five years, and that’s a remarkable thing, I know, in the kind of relationship we’re in. Lately, though, the fears that I have managed to suppress has just resurfaced. I am terrified of the day when the world would just swallow us.I hate this feeling of doom.A part of me wants to go back to that time, when it didn’t feel like there was an ominous cloud hovering above us. But I know better than to hope for the impossible.
Don’t worry, baby. I’m ready for the fight, and I hope you are, too.